When they asked me what I loved most about life; I smiled and said you.

When they asked me what I loved most about life; I smiled and said you.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

It's a New Day

And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips, has been fashioned of the clay which the Potter has moistened with His own sacred tears. Kahlil Gibran

So I've read this book, I Will Carry You by Angie Smith, and I had a thought as I cried through almost every page. I forgot a lesson that was already given to me....although you may not like the things that are handed to you in your life, it is those things that were designed for YOU by HIM. I may not understand it, like it, or want it, but this journey although there are countless others like me in this world, was specifically meant for me. So I've decided I will finally accept this course, not with tears and anger, but with simply acceptance. I will look to him for guidance and see where he takes me. By the way......I love Slip n Slides....grass and all!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010


So I have to be honest, I'm pretty down today. I had my consultation with the financial person from the infertility clinic. Got all the final $$$ amounts. It seems such an odd thing to me using the word baby and $ in the same sentence. I mean if you've ever felt the feeling of holding your baby and watching them laugh or sleep....how do you put a price on that? I guess in my world that's exactly what someone's asking me to do. Put a price on exactly how much I want a child. The problem is I can't.

Monday, February 1, 2010


There's nothing like a snow day, a phone call from a friend, and an awesome Sunday sermon to remind you of what you have. Thank God for my son and all of our family and friends!

Friday, January 29, 2010

Information that was helpful......somewhat

We had our first real answers on Tuesday of this week from a specialist that my friends referred me to. His name is Dr. Peter Ahlering of the Sher Institute in St. Louis. He is very knowledgable in the field of infertility and I really got a sense from him that he was the best we were going to find. When I say we got answers from him, what I really mean is we got what I had expected. He told us there was nothing wrong with us and that the only real way to increase your chances of having a baby is to do In-Vitro. AAAAAHHHHHH! So frustrating!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

So it begins....

I decided to post these blogs as an outlet with the desire that others in our same situation might find information, a common bond, or simply hope. We began this journey a year and a half ago. We decided like most other couples we would try for a second. I grew concerned after about 6 months because my son came along so quickly. We have been through 2 regular OB/GYNs and 2 specialist in infertility. Still no luck.....